Wednesday, July 16, 2014

The Future: A Long, Hard Look

Friends, I think it's high time I admit defeat. It's been a long journey to this point. Five years ago when I sat down and decided to get serious about this writing thing, I was happily oblivious.

Writing was still fun back then. Writing hadn't sapped the joy from everything else yet. Writing hadn't become ONE MORE THING I had to get done in a day. Daily word count goals weren't something to feel guilty about not meeting.

Having a life, interests and hobbies outside of reading and writing weren't something to feel guilty for enjoying.

I'm tired of feeling like a BAD PERSON for not writing. For not reading. I long for the days when reading was a pleasure and a joy, not one more thing I should be doing.

All this to say that I am walking away. Forever? I don't know. It could be forever, it could be for a month or two. Probably at the very least, until next year.

But frankly, I may never write again. Why should I when I'm no good at it, as people are all too fond of telling me.

3 comments:

  1. Who said you aren't good at writing? You have talent. You have a great imagination and I love your stories.

    If you need to take time off, do it. I've taken months and years off since I started writing seriously. Even the years I say I'm writing full time I usually wind up taking two months (sometimes 3) off so I have time to take care of the kids during school holidays. If writing sucks right now, if you hate it, then it's time to take a break.

    But I hope you come back. I want to read all your Inkling stories. :)

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  2. SIGHS. I understand feeling this way, but I think this is an extreme reaction. If you're writing for other people (and not yourself) then yes, quit. You shouldn't be worried about everyone else, and you shouldn't base your worth as a writer on whether or not people respond to your tweets or your blog posts. I didn't see this until now because you posted it after my usual reads and on a Wednesday morning. Most people are insanely busy and are looking forward to the weekend by today, lol!

    In any case, if someone is telling you you're a bad writer, you don't need to quit--you need to find yourself a new critique partner or beta reader.

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  3. I'm very sad to hear this because I've seen some great, great stuff from you. But I so get it. I really do. I say take that break, forever, if needed. You do what makes YOU happy. I took five years off from writing once, and it was exactly what I needed. I'm taking a break right now, and I've also decided some major things that are going to drastically change my course. Life is a constant string of changes. I just hope you find the right changes for you when you need them. *HUGS* I'm always here if you need to talk. You know where to find me, my friend. *MORE HUGS*

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